Pepper Spray Scenario: Police Academy, Day 32

Gustavo Adolfo Aybar

Having recently sanded and finished 
the wooden floors to the new house, 
my eyes feel like that, 
like the handheld sander scrapes
and pushes against my orbs.
Like that. 

Voices, commands, not sight,
lead me 
to the first few stations. 
I execute jumping jacks, punches. 

Palm/heel strikes and elbows 
land thumps and thwaps 
on the bags, over and over. 
My eyes unwilling to unlatch 
like the pull-down attic stairs, 
while the pain descends 
into my lungs 
with bangs and clangs 
like the broom handle I used 
to try and pry the door loose.  

Like the door, 
none of my eyes open. 

Next station.

My right leg snaps 
and strikes the foam. 
I wheeze. I cough, 
I choke. Knees and baton strikes 
follow. I'm barely able to think 
and blink from the right, 
when I identify the instructor 
who sprayed me. My thumb releases 
the pivot guard, as I pop 
the blue training pistol up 
and out of the holster. 

I order him to drop the knife;
my eyes and sights on his chest, 
index finger on the trigger. 
The muzzle of my gun 
covers everything 
I am willing to destroy.