Shedding Season

Jane Morton

Before bees caught in my hands,
            shaking. Before my mouth

filled with honey. Before the cottonwoods shed
            and made spring winter.

Woolly seed all in the air like snow. No way
            of knowing it would hurt me

just to breathe it. My chest mottled the same red
            as my hands, breaking hard

bewildered fruit just for the sting. Bitter juice
            hot as batteries, a fat lip.

Before you met me, I was my own
            fever. My own bite bruising.

And how could I have known how
            heat breaks. How to show

teeth without the blood. Stubborn
            smudge on a mirror, no way

of knowing how you'd haunt
            what I see there.

When the trees shed it's already over:
            sexed in secret, a closed bud.

Before I spoke, I was only my body.
            All blooming rash, all asthma

evidence kept flesh-deep. Before you named me,
            I was so many things.

Before your mouth, a line
            of ants drawn down my back.