O Fallen AngelBy Kate ZambrenoChiasmus Press |
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Maggie is broken. Maggie is having a breakdown. Maggie is having a psychic break and it ain’t to Bermuda.
Maggie is broken because inside she feels all of these dark messy thoughts it is Chaos and she doesn’t know how to express it!
Maggie is broken because Maggie cannot articulate why she feels sad or why she feels angry and that’s why therapy does not go too well.
her dark sticky feelings
That is why it is good for her that she only goes to a psychiatrist now, that’s the man with the pills. Tell me why you feel that way Maggie but I don’t know! I don’t know! I just feel lost yes I am a little girl with her redhood lost in the woods and then Grandma turns into a wolf and eats me. That is the nightmare I keep on having.
Maggie keeps on having a nightmare and it is called her life.
Maggie loves the wolf yes Maggie loves the wolf. The hungry boys with their wolfy eyes and wolfy teeth that leave a trail of inconvenient hickeys.
Maggie knows she really wants it. Maggie says no but her eyes say yes.
no
no
no
Maggie says yes but she really means no.
Maggie doesn’t say anything which the wolf-boy takes as a good sign and he leaps on her and tears her to pieces.
Maggie gets smashed. She goes out and gets smashed and then she hooks up with her Prince Charming, she hooks up with her Prince Charming Enough, and he takes her to his place and fingers her while she writhes in pain pretending it’s pleasure
because Maggie doesn’t want him not to like her. His breath tastes like Old Style like the alcoholic uncle the Vietnam vet who lives on the streets they are not supposed to talk about him. The bad bad wolf jumps her he jumps her bones the corpse of Maggie
and then she leaves in the morning and never sees him again and Maggie pretends she’s nonchalant and adult and doesn’t care but inside she’s hurting hurting and between her legs is throbbing throbbing that’s where Maggie keeps her heart.
Maggie fucks boys and pretends it doesn’t matter because Maggie is empowered!
and they don’t even need to walk her home or buy her breakfast.
Maggie just wants to fuck. Maggie just wants to fuck the pain away.
Maggie is a cavernous hole.
Maggie is a carnival ride.
You can go to town for hours.
Maggie likes it to hurt. Make it hurt.
Sometimes Maggie needs to put a little self-confidence up her nose. It leaves a trail like Hansel & Gretel.
Maggie is poisoned by all the fairytales. Maggie used to dream of Prince Charming, her Savior, her Messiah, and Prince Charming would come and then she would come and they would come together!
But it is not so. Prince Charming is really a wolf in disguise. And then Maggie started to crave the wolves, the hunters, the bad men in the forest.
Maggie likes the not-nice boys who are mean to her.
Maggie likes the not-nice boys who pull her pigtails on the playground.
Maggie likes the not-nice boys who pull down her skirt and push her up against a wall.
Maggie likes the not-nice boys to force her to her knees.
Maggie likes the bullies and Maggie likes the ones who torture her, who deprive her of her sanity, who leave her awake during sleepless nights wondering what went wrong? what could Maggie have done differently to make him love her?
Maggie is into Xtreme Love like Xtreme Sportz.
Maggie needs to wear kneepads because of all the rugburns.
Maggie always lets them get at least to third base which is finger-fucking
usually she lets them get to home plate.
And Sleeping Beauty was slipped a mickey and raped. Or she just let him inside of her because he was pleading and insistent and she wanted him to call her again.
And Sleeping Beauty wanted to be liked and had terribly low self-esteem so when he said that she was the prettiest girl in all the land she gave him a blow-job, even though her jaw locks sometimes.
And Sleeping Beauty pretended to be asleep but really she died inside and then she let Prince Charming cum between her tits and on her face and in her hair as he breathed Yeah Bitch Take It.
And Sleeping Beauty didn’t make him wear a condom and now she has pelvic inflammatory disease and crotch-itch and genital warts, but oh, the memories.
Don’t all little girls have rape fantasies? Maggie is in a dark wood and the wolf comes up to her and he slams her face into a tree. He chops her to pieces, the bad, bad, wolf, because she is a bad, bad, girl.